Self-Doubt: An Actor's Unwelcome Visitor
- OnStage Columnist
There’s a show or a part you really want but somewhere stored in the dark corner of your mind is self-doubt. Sure you’ve locked him in his cage and relegated him to the farthest part of your mind. You threw layers upon layers of confidence on him. It’s just that every now and again he peeks his nasty little head out and you question everything.
“Did I rehearse my song enough?” “Who am I kidding, I’ll never hit that note.” “I can’t remember that one word in my monologue.” “Are my dance shoes even on the right foot?” I mean you question everything. You wonder how you’ll feel if you don’t get the part? What if you get the part? Can you pull it off?
I’ve been there. I’ve doubted everything. I’ve tried to sleep, going over a monologue again and again. I’ve wondered how I ended up auditioning for musicals, I mean you’ve never heard me sing, but trust me on this one. I’ve lamented about what to wear, how to do my hair and make-up. I’ve even questioned why I put myself through this again and again. I realize how I’d feel if I didn’t audition and that’s unacceptable to me.
Then I take a few deep breaths and picture myself onstage in the part I want to play. There’s enough negativity and self-doubt out there already. I breathe some more, listen to my inspiration playlist and perform it in my car on the way to the audition. I believe in myself again.
Push that self-doubt out of your head and believe in yourself. If you believe in yourself, they will too. Go get that part. I believe in you.